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Loneliness- A Sherlock Fanfiction

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Loneliness, n. sadness because one lacks friends or companions.

Some days are easy. He drifts along and fills the day with little nothings, things that don't matter, and he's fine. He tucks away his deductive sense and he is normal. Those days are okay, and he could go on forever like that, not missing anything from his previous life.
Some days are harder.

Those days are unbearable. He can't distract himself and he can't keep hiding behind a mask of normalcy. All there is are memories of life before he fell, of life where murders are imperative to his sanity and not tragic, where he and Mycroft can banter lazily, where Moriarty is a constant mystery, and where John is always there for support, and to show that he is not alone. These days are too much, and he needs to return home.

He is alone.
No-one would notice, would care, if he died. It is everywhere: he is alone.

Those days drag on, and on… and on. Loneliness crushes him like a bug underfoot, and it's all he can do not to scream and give in and finally tell John the truth. Each one of these days shortens his waiting. First it was forever, then 25 years, then 20, then 15… 10… 7… 5… and now, three years.

Three years divvyed up between easy days of drifting along and filling time with nothings and unbearable days, of hiding under the unrelenting water as it pounds his back as he tries to wash away all the loneliness. Three years of alone.
Nobody really seems to consider the Reichenbach grief from Sherlock's point of view. I mean, we all see John grieving and being depressed, but for Sherlock it would be just as difficult. He had to convince his best friend that he was dead. Anyway. Still suffering from the Reichenbach Fall angst. More fanfictions to do with the aforementioned shall arise. >:D

Anyway, I found this picture, and it was- to me, at least- very powerful, and got me thinking. This wasn't where I planned to go with it, but I'm still happy with the result. And no, I did NOT draw it. You'd be mad to think that. It was =MagicBunni.

So, I don't own the pic, but have asked permission to write this based on it.
I also do not own Sherlock.
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dragonfly36's avatar
This was the first fanfiction that I ever read, thank you for this, for this beautiful piece of literature.